|John over at Going Gently http://disasterfilm.blogspot.com/ left a comment the other day on one of my posts. His words touched my heart and also made me do some serious thinking about Christmas. |
As most of you know this year was not a good year. From losing the last of my Boxers to losing my beloved house, almost becoming homeless, having to move, well, just not a good year.
Over these past few months I have been battling I suppose a bit of depression. Only thing is, I didn't realize it until John left a comment. Thankfully this is the only time in my life the word depression has come on to the scene.
Being in a new house ( which is not mine and yes that bothers me), and it being winter, and not having my stall barn to put the horses and donkeys in on cold nights and icky days has played a pretty big part in this whole depression thing. I worry about them being out in the pasture with just some redneck tarp shelters to try to protect them from the elements. My sister Connie told me yesterday that it probably doesn't bother them as much as it does me. And she is right. Thanks Sis.
The picture is of the entry to my beloved lost house during Christmas time last year. I made myself look at all the pictures of my beloved house to help deal with the loss of it.
Now that I realize what has been going on with my 'blue moods', I can do something about it. And that is to accept what has happened. Nothing is going to change the past. So it is time for me to follow my own advice and "Buck the 'F' up".
Yes, there have been a lot of positives. Especially with finding this place that allowed all the animals.
I seriously need to reconnect with my wacky sense of humor. Somewhere along the way it got lost.
Thank you John. Thank you.
Until next time.................
ps--I still believe that the Christmas holiday is too commercialized!